Life is full of expectations. Whether this be the expectations of others or our own personal ones. The choices we make in life are what fill these little wonders. People will always make their own views on how your life should go. But you must be the one to finalise what will happen. I personally have many expectations for myself, which I believe can't always be good. It is these small things in life which begin to challenge us, if we do not find peace with them. It is good to have expectations as long as they do not turn into your demons.
One of my expectations is that I will go to the gym 4 days a weeks and run 3 days a week. But I ask myself is this possible? Yes, I have done this before. Am I achieving this? Absolutely not. By no means am I meeting my aim. So I sit here on a Sunday night at 9pm in bed, yes I'm in bed at 9pm, please don't be shocked. As I sit here thinking about why I'm just not getting there. Firstly I have had roughly two weeks off the gym. Which was not by choice firstly my car went to the garage and then my membership was waiting to be renewed. Which trust me your not the only person to find that shocking, I actually have a gym membership. If you asked me this 2 months back I would of said not in a million years, I can't workout in a gym. But apparently its easier than I thought. So after all this I now find that 6am start the demon of my day. Yes I know I could workout later but I'm a morning gym freak I thrive from a morning at the gym. So if that isn't enough autumn/winter is just round the corner and we get to welcome the awful dark nights we all dread. Having no time in the evening to run 3 mile before darkness falls really makes that expectation hard on me.
Then there are expectations from others. Some want to encourage you to do these things. While others are trying to get you to stop or just simply don't understand why you do it. This is when expectations become hard, especially for someone like me. I am a people pleaser. If others around me are happy it makes me happy. Life can get confusing when you are juggling different opinions all over the place.
My advice is thrive from them expectations, be they yours or someone else's. You only have one life to live, love and enjoy. Take each day by the horns and try your hardest. One thing I have learnt is to never expect the unexpected from myself. I believe in PUSHING myself but not expecting a miracle. I am one 21 year old girl, with dare I say, the world at my finger tips. By overthinking every little detail in life you feel you loose your grip. When you loose your grip you feel everything is impossible. But no more, this is your life. Live it how you wish. I will no longer be having such high expectations in myself, I can only achieve so much. I am here for the ride and I can't wait to see what else life has to offer.
Love
A Norfolk Blondie
xx
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